It’s never easy to trust, but when you can, it is so fullfilling. Trust leads to release and release leads to peace, liberty and joy. You gain an incomparable strength, and a truly beautiful hope which outlasts & exceeds everything else. Liberty from worries, from uncertainty, from distress and confusion – what a gift. There is a joy to be found in knowing you are relying not on your own understanding, but in the One whose understanding is a zillion times better than our the God who loves in abundance – in abundance! Wow!

It’s so easy to follow your own ideals, to ignore the Lord and even to be ignorant to His nudges and promptings.

But wow, what a peace there is to be gained from trusting in the Lord, through all circumstances. I gain such a peace from knowing that I am engraved on the palms of His hands, and my life is precious to my Father. In His perfect love, he has plans for me, unique, just for me, and they’re plans worth trusting in.

Though, I have no idea right now what Im going to be doing once I finish my degree. I have every trust & confidence the Lord will guide me in my life, as He so gracefully has done so far.

I am content that I am where God wants be to me at this time in my life, though I may have got bits wrong, though I might not be doing all he wants me to be doing – or whatever –  I know that actually He IS directing my path.

He is Sovereign King over my life and yours. What a gift to know that Creater God, has a perfect plan and purpose for us all individually.He loves us SO much that he cares for us, he see’s our every move, he thinks about us, and wants us to experience life in ABUNDANCE! In abundance!! (I love that word so much!!) – And, the desires of our hearts, he knows them and will honour them, Godly desires – the ones he has placed there – are a part of the plan.

I’m asking God to reveal more of His plan for my life & to nudge me in the direction he wants me to go.To speak to those he wants me to, to work where he wants me to, to be where he wants me to be…

He is faithful, and has His own beautiful ways of doing things…beyond our comprehension.

Praise the Lord for his goodness!

@Sarahpillow – Just because you dont know it, cant see it & dont feel it..there is #HOPE because HE is in control, HE said it, HE is there & it is promised


Just for a moment – stop – pause – take a deep breath & contemplate how amazing life is.

You are hugely blessed.

Right now you probably have access to food, a roof over your head, a wardrobe of clothes, family & friends who love you very much – As you’re reading this, you have access to the Internet – just one of many luxuries we take for granted.

Yesterday I was reminded how blessed I am to be born where I am – I don’t have to worry about where my next dinner will come from or walk miles to get a drink of water or live in the fear of being abducted or attacked or have a drug addiction or suffer from a disability…the list goes on.

Seriously, just stop, look around you & praise God for how amazing your life is…it’s good to remind yourself

“With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy” (Max Ehrmann)


It’s such a shame when Christians do not stand up for & defend the object of their faith.

The BBC so often broadcasts things which offend (or should offend) Christians. From blatant mockery of Jesus & blasphemy, to the denial of what one is allowed to say on air – Christianity is somehow treated differently to that of other religions, & what’s more, it is understood as acceptable to society. People barely bat an eyelid when Christianity is mocked. Recently Mark Thompson (head of the BBC) admitted that British broadcasting would never mock Mohammed like it mocks Jesus. There is just no justice in that & it does not make any sense! Is the BBC becoming pro-Islam & anti-Christian? I would not go so far as to say that, but surely there needs to be some kind of equality…

It is obvious that Christian passivity is a problem & secular society will surely only continue to mock Jesus if we don’t raise our voices & stir up change…not just announcing that is offends us but actually demonstrating that we take our faith seriously; actively proclaiming that we do believe & serve the Jesus they mock.

If, as the values of the BBC state, ‘audiences are at the heart of everything [they] do’ surely our reaction & concerns should be taken seriously. With the aim of the BBC being ‘the most creative organisation in the world’ – mockery & ridicule only serve as pathetic & low attempts; a desperate means of creativity.

Whether it’s socially acceptable or not, we should be able to defend our faith & not have it mocked on television as entertainment. If the BBC seeks to be religiously neutral – they have a funny way of doing it. It is ironic that while they do not want to ‘offend or alienate non-christians’, Christians are being offended and alienated! Anti-Christian bias is worryingly becoming more prevalent & probably because we are becoming less vocal. Christianity is persistently the object of ridicule & mockery chiefly because we are passive & allow it to continue – albeit being offended.

Why is the Christian scared to do something?? Are we really that embarrassed about Jesus that we won’t stand up for him?

If I’m honest it shocks & upsets me that we allow such content to be aired – it depicts Jesus contrary to what he is & the message of Christ gets totally distorted. How can we allow that? Jesus said we’d face persecution & troubles but we do not have to put up with it. We need to take some responsibility. We need a little more passion & less passivity.

Yes – there are programmes like ‘Songs of praise’ (but that too has some limitations & rules to adhere to) – but there’s also broadcasts like ‘Jerry Springer The Opera’, & that was just not cool…(Mark Thompson even said if Mohammad & not Jesus had been mocked there, it would not have been aired)

Sometimes I’ve sat in a church, listening to a sermon and been like:  ‘o my gosh.. what are they doing?!’ – the communication has either been pants or the message totally irrelevant or the speaker either too seeker-sensitive or too seeker-hostile…or something like that.

I don’t get why some churches allow such bad content to be spoken? How is that going to communicate Christ effectively?!

I think some churches need a bit of a reality check.  It’s no wonder in some areas congregation numbers are rapidly falling…while in others they are rapidly rising because of effective communication & talks which are applicable to everyday life..on issues which engage, inspire & equip people on their walks with Christ.

For God’s sake we need to step up &communicate Christ in a manner which is deserving to who he is.

‘There must be more than this’ – a classic Tim Hughes song – one I really like actually & one which implies there is more…we sing this song because we know there is more of God to experience, to know, to love.

It never fails to blow my mind that there’s always more of God. Not only does he fulfil our expectations but he goes beyond them. He is kinda like an unlimited spring of water – he never dries up or runs out & so never leaves us thirsty. But at the same time we are never fully satisfied & want to keep on drinking – because it tastes good & gives us life. Isn’t that actually pretty amazing – that the more we get of Christ – the more we drink – the more we want?! & isn’t it even more amazing that there is always more to drink?!

There is always a deeper level to go with Christ – and this is what I find exciting. The place you are at with Christ now- no matter how great it may seem – or that time in worship where you felt so close to God – that isn’t the height of Christ’s love or the depth of his affection – there is always more to come, more to grab hold of. Whether it’s a deeper level of intimacy, a stronger sense of purpose, more signs & wonders…There is more!
Isn’t that beautiful? For that reason, I think, we can never get bored…yayy! It isn’t a boring thing to be excited & expectant, to experience new heights or depths. To learn more about Christ, to experience his gifts, to go where he leads. It’s like the ultimate adventure that leaves us longing & in anticipation for more.

I’ve always thought humans have an inherent longing for something more. You usually hear people contemplating about life. We are quizzical beings who seek answers to existence, we seek purpose…we seek, we seek, we, seek. I believe we are spiritual beings who will never be – no matter what we think – content in this life without finding relationship with Christ – the giver of life – who gives meaning to life. I mean, without Christ what is the point? – it’s kinda obvious that life becomes a selfish, individualistic, short lived & pointless moment in history, which ultimately doesn’t hold any meaning except self-satisfaction (which can never be achieved because we always long for or want more from life. – just take celebrities who crave money, fame, beauty, power – how many are satisfied?! Mmm in reality probs like zerooo)

As we were created to be in for relationship with God whether we realise it or not we yearn for him, & I love that he yearns for us! It is the natural thing to seek him.

Augustine of Hippo (groovy name I know) once said ‘our heart us restless until it finds our rest in you [Christ]’.

When we turn to Christ we find a sense of peace which gives purpose & can’t be found any other way – money, fame, power won’t fulfil this yearning.

We’re drawn to God because there is an inner tendency, a deeper longing, to find him. We are creatures longing for meaning, for purpose.  We are meant to find our way to God. I’m so thankful that I’ve been blessed to find him & respond to him. What a huge blessing that I have found life – & life in its fullness…but that there’s more to come! It’s a huge blessing to walk in relationship with Christ, to have heard his message. In essence, God has called you to himself –  the best invitation ever?! I think so.

I guess this is why I get so frustrated when some churches & Christians give off such a bad & ugly image of Christ & what it means to be in relationship & follow him. Why have we got it so wrong & so many give off this crappy, boring, self-fulfilling Christianity when actually it’s like the most exhilarating thing ever that gives life, is about serving others & is full of blessing. It totally frustrates me that my non Christian friends think Christianity is dull & about singing songs, following rules & not having any fun…(ermm if it was like that I deffo wouldn’t want to be a Christian either & I’m pretty sure they wouldn’t want to be my friend!) But it frustrates me even more when people go to church or say they are Christians but actually are so in the world still that they look no different to the non-Christian culture around them!  I reeeally hate compromise! I hate that it’s so subtle & people think its fine but grrr its not – but that’s another issue!

I guess I have a challenge for you & myself…. Can people tell you’re a follower of Christ? Our actions, money & time show others where are priorities lie. So, what does your lifestyle say about you?

I think the more we seek Christ, the deeper we will go & the more we will reflect him to those around us – & the more people will notice Christianity is different – because it brings fullness & meaning & purpose & excitement!

It’s so true that ‘the more we see the more we love’ Christ – so wadda you waiting for?! Seek him, drink up & get excited! 🙂 wooo

(sorry this is abit of a ramble…!)

Last week I made some delish Peanut Butter Cookies, or what I like to call ‘Peabuttookies‘ ..not really sure why I call them that but anyway… they were SO easy to make & SO yummy…I thought Id be nice & share it with you. They only took me 5-10 mins to prepare then about 10 mins in the oven. EASY PEASY!

Only 4 ingredients (yeas only 4! wooooot )
– 1 cup crunchy peanut butter
– 1 egg
– 1 tbsp baking soda
– 1 cup sugar (1/2 brown sugar & 1/2 granulated sugar)

  • Preheat oven to 180, measure & mix the bits together, then on a greased baking tray (I like to line it with greaseproof paper instead) scoop little dollops of the cookie mix (the size of half a golf ball, & press down gently with a fork)
  • Put in the oven for 10 mins, or longer if you like them more crunchy, I like mine a lil gooey.
  • Leave to cool on a wire rack for a bit then transfer to your mouth along  with a glass of cold milk, Mmmmmmm Hmmmmmmmmmmm!!

I put together some clips from my second visit to Uganda in July 2011…the first bit came out a bit weird for some reason…but anyway…I did this mainly to remember the people & place clearly…was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster when I was there but also one of the most amazing times I’ve had!…


Sometimes it is good to get out of your comfort zone, have your eyes opened & witness great poverty & injustice in our world…